Now you have me really confused. Where was the "administrative pastor" who had charge of all the finances?
EXACTLY! EXACTLY!! EXACTLY!!! And yes, he sits up there smugly. So very true.
I worried a little bit when Pastor Wilkerson sometime last week chided we people who haven't 'moved on' yet...he said he can't come in and fix everyone's problem with another person...While there are huge glimmers that he (Pastor Wilkerson) is different, there are occasional glimmers that underneath it all, he is also the same. If that makes any sense...
Part of me realizes that is God's job to clean up the messes, get rid of whoever needs gotten rid of. Another part of me realizes my extreme impatience and dissatisfaction that the job doesn't seem to be getting done as fast as or the way I would want it done is sin on my part, for I am judging God with my pitiful human comprehension. However, another part of me says, "Not one dime to this church until..."
I absolutely detested the "throw it in your face" swagger of JS. And I always thought I was wrong because he was the Man Of God. So it was quite the internal conflict raging there. A year later, I am healing SOMEWHAT. I think perhaps I am more sensitive than most, but I was very, very wounded by this whole thing and the subsequent months of revelations that ensued. To learn that nothing was what it seemed...I'd believed a devious fairy tale and thought it was from God? Let God be true and every man a liar, for we most certainly are and some more than others God help their sorry, sorry souls.
Obviously I am still skeptical and uncertain. That is going away, but then I am reminded -- there are people of whom I have legitimate cause to be skeptical and uncertain. And they are put up above me and I bristle against that.