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Baptist City Holdout wrote: If one feels something learned from a deviate is worth mentioning, please rephrase it so it's not a quote.
The thing is, I think there are people out there who so bury their heads in the sand that they do not know Joe Combs (or others of his ilk) to be deviates.
When we moved here to FBC Hammond / HAC in the 80's and all the scandals broke, we were told that the newspapers were vile and evil and against us, and we were to shun them. Cancel our subscriptions. So I buried my head in the sand, as I was commanded to do from the pulpit. If I had come across and read a negative article back then, I would have rejected it as being impossible. My mindset was 100% loyalty to our cause, which was represented by our great and infallible leader, the right revered Dr. JH. If he said to ignore any negativity, I ignored any negativity. And felt very smug at what a good Christian I was, to boot. Doesn't the Bible say, after all, "Finally, brethren, whatsoever things are true, whatsoever things are honest, whatsoever things are just, whatsoever things are pure, whatsoever things are lovely, whatsoever things are of good report; if there be any virtue, and if there be any praise, think on these things." Ph 4:8. Those poor, unscriptural ignoramuses who crossed over and entered the land of negativity...I pitied them and felt superior to them at the same time. Well, eventually it all died down, and it hadn't reared enough of an ugly roar for me to be woken up.
Flash forward to the JS years...before I really knew anything about what was wrong but while my spirit was sending out red flags I didn't quite recognize (I can be obtuse), I kept hearing JS mention another evil entity, The Internet. He would say something and then add, "I suppose that will be all over the internet tomorrow." He began to mention the internet a lot, it seemed a bit of an obsession.
I had so thoroughly bought in to the man, as he repeatedly admonished us to do, that I honestly could not comprehend how anyone could have any negative spin on anything he said, did, or thought. I was curious to know how warped and twisted people had to be in order to find something negative to say about him...so I began to try to figure out what sites he was referring to on the internet. I just used a search engine, put in a few key names / words. I came across an older incarnation of this, the FFF. I do not remember the year...
What I do remember is the poster, "Smellin' Coffee". I read a little bit of one post of his on some topic I would never be able to recall, and it impressed upon me immediately, "Oh my word! These people are SCORNERS. They are SKEPTICS." My world made sense once again. The only people who could think something against my amazing pastor and / or church were people beyond hope...the scorners and the skeptics. I left this world behind, having opened the door for a moment and not having liked what I saw.
What nagged at me a little is that Smellin' sounded...intelligent. I've always been swayed by intelligence. That's part of what attached me so securely to JS. He was so much more intelligent than so many others of the uneducated-and-proud-of-it bully pulpit drawling Baptists. So many of the guest speaker preechers just made me cringe...and I was proud of JS's intelligence, which he made certain to parade in front of us at all occasions. I use the word 'proud' purposefully. It is a word and attitude my husband has taught me to avoid. If I say to a young person, "I am so proud of you!" he corrects me later. Pride is a sin. I say, "I didn't mean it sinfully, I meant I was really happy and pleased for the child!" He says, "Then say you are really happy and pleased. Don't bring pride into it." (we've had conversations like that, but that is a fictitious and not literal transcription - I also try to not quote my husband since I don't wish to give an occasion for others who do not know him to form any opinion of him)
Back on Track Now: I was proud, sinfully, of JS for being a savvy, intelligent, modern pastor. I didn't understand how anyone could have anything negative to say about him in any way, unless they were not right with God themselves because if ANYONE was right with God, it was JS.
Smellin's comments made me think...but that was before I was ready to think, so I quickly shut that door.
However, when the scandals broke...I sure knew where to go. I was ready to shed my 100% faith in all things FBC. I wanted to learn, I wanted to think, I wanted to grow. It has been a most confusing but liberating journey.
I truly believe that the Sunshine, Apple Pie & Lollipop world we had all THOUGHT we were living in (our fool's paradise) dissolved for me forever with the JS scandal. But for some, the lights merely went dim for a bit. Their world darkened momentarily, but as soon as the buffoon Gibbs got up and told them everything was fine, they sighed a sigh of relief. As the months of EL as acting pastor dragged on, they grew to love and adore him for doing such a great job of keeping their world going. And when Pastor Wilkerson came on the scene, in a bit of a Gomer Pyle-esque way: "Well, Goll-eee! Here's a Happy Good Morning To You!" well, the people knew their Sunshine, Apple Pie, and Lollipop world was restored.
They never decided to try and learn the truth about anything that happened.
Part of me thinks perhaps they are right, and I do truly envy their uncomplicated simplicity. But it's the kind of naiveté that, once lost, can never be regained.
I know I've rambled here...but one thing of which I am very sure. God is everywhere. He is not only in the land of Sunshine, Apple Pie, and Lollipops.