kaba said:
It does make sense, I just find myself questioning everything Pastors or people leadership now "preach" to me. And I question all that was taught to me.
This is completely natural in your situation, and I don't actually think it is a bad thing. By that I mean that it is good to examine the specifics of what you believe/practice and why. Such examinations have driven me, in my own life, to do them for the Lord and because the Bible teaches them, rather than b/c some man told me to.
The balance comes in not throwing the baby out with the bathwater. Scads of my peers have done/are making that mistake, and it is an egregious one. In their desperation to lurch out of the ditch on the side of the road they have swerved so quickly as to fall headlong into the ditch on the other side of the road.
Investigate. Question. Study. But be slow to change.