The call to pastor comes as a desire...scripturally, anyway (1 Timothy 3:1). If you now desire to leave the office, I wouldn't say God is barring the door.
Good thought, and I will consider it.
But... ( a little lengthy, but I am a Baptist)
I know for a fact that God called me here to start a church from nothing.
But really and truly, I've never wanted to come.
I didn't want to pastor, I didn't want to start a church... I didn't even want to work in another church...
I came b/c God called me here.
And He proved that by the initial call in 2004,
and then answering 6 specific prayers that I prayed before I got here.
I prayed six specific prayers while living in Mobile, AL...
Prayer: That God would give us a house to live in, in spite of me not having a job or income.
Answer: God provided us a 153K house with only my down payment of 30K and me not having a job. Since I have been here, I have never missed or been late on a mortgage payment.
Prayer: I prayed for support even though I did not go on deputation, I just sent out letters.
In fact, when I came to Pittsburgh, the only support I had was $200 a month from my home church in Alabama.
Answer: Within 3 months, I had about $1500.00 support coming in from all over the country.
Prayer: I prayed for God to send me someone to do Junior church, nursery, and knock doors with me. When you start a church, you have no one, and I wanted someone to help share the burden. (This wasn't my first rodeo)
Answer: A week after I arrived in Pgh, a pastor invited me to go to a tent meeting in Ohio.
In spite of hating tent meetings or Ohio, I went.
After the service was over, and the pastor having introduced me and what I was doing,
A man came over and introduced himself to me:
He said, Hi, my name is.....and I belong to such and such a ministry.
We help men start churches, how can I help you?
We agreed doctrinally, and he agreed to help me knock doors, and he also agreed for him and his family to stay with me for 3 months serving in the church. (He lived nearby in Ohio)
Guess who knocked doors with me, taught my Junior church, and did the nursery?
He and his family.
By the time he left, God provided several families to take his place.
Prayer: I prayed for God to send me churches to help me knock doors.
My goal was to knock doors for 5 weeks prior to my start date.
Answer: Every Saturday for those 5 weeks, At least 2 churches came out to help us knock doors on Saturdays.
Prayer: I prayed for a start up location in the middle of 5 towns (that we could afford)
Answer: God gave us a beautiful location in the middle of 5 towns...The Marriott Hotel.
Everyone in the area knew where it was, and it was in the middle of (or in very close proximity to: Finley Twp, Moon Twp., Robinson Twp. Imperial Twp. Coraopolis, All those towns seemed to converge right to that Hotel.
In spite of the Marriott being the nicest place around, it was the most affordable, and they set it up and tore it down. We stayed there for 1.5 years.
People from all those towns came to the church.
Prayer: I prayed that God would give us a Christian School for our kids to go to in spite of me not having any money to send them there.
Answer: After we arrived, a pastor about 30 minutes away said:
We have a Christian Day School, and btw, your kids can attend for free.
And then He gave us a beautiful million dollar building back in 2008, absolutely free.
I prayed, "Lord, your hand is not short, you can provide a building in spite of us only having 9K in the building fund."
Turns out, we didn't need it to purchase the building...
And BTW, My wife does not want to leave.
So, in spite of me not wanting to be here, I'm actually afraid to leave even though I do not like to pastor or preaching.
I don't want to get swallowed by a whale or something like that.
Believe it or not, I get really down about it...really down.
I have spoken to one person on here about it.